I felt so lost ...I am so scare I lack of ability !!! How I am going to do tomorrow ?? Why keep forcing me to do it !! I am not the type of girl you expected I am !!! I am so scare to let you down !!! I am lacking of confident I got stage fright .Bro wei Chen and bro Shu lin I know u want to train me but it is kinda stress you've put on me!!! Why everything must be perfect ? You told me seriously if I didn't reach you expectation you will definitely return me with black face !! Why? I just want to live in simple way I don't want to be leader as I know I am not qualify ... Pls give me a a spare . I don't wish to involved in it as I don't want to destroy the relationship between us ..I know you will struggle me in future !!! Please dun let it happen ..I am truly cherish the relationship with your family