Sick about it....
heavely father ,TP and Jesus christ
Long time didn't write blogs
Time fly by...
scare by days
because have yet to meet my true love soon
we talked about blessing yesterday with Jun
Shall I go for Matching?
I know it is the only ways to the heaven
but my hearts was not strong enough
I am not brave enough....
Father I am very envy of yin yin and mei ling
They got a courage to go US for fund raising alone
without friend acompany ..
I wish I could go to US for training
but there are a lot of things I cant bear it up
"Family" .Somehow the training is tough
I am scare I can't take it
beside my tuition center , and reality life
Honestly ,father I am scare to live with heavy burden
like finacial burden
I have been experince it before
It was hard to imagine..
so sorry father ....
Last week the sermon given by bro Shu Ling -repentance
I had realise something which is consist of very important points
If We keep blaming ourselves ,we might leave God far far aways
because we don't know how to face to God
beside the judgement.Judgement actually is love
God loves us so much ..How could I always let you down.
Father once again I need you forgiven...
This few days I felt so tired
because of the human relationship
I can't manage well
Is this my problem ?
I used my sincerely heart to treats them
at the end they treat me like this ways
Xiao Liao , I treat her as a good friend
I treat her baby (xiao bi)like a treasure
Everything I do ,The purpose is just for their owm good
I don't know what xiao liao can suddenly being so mad
what is the things is mad?
After my birthday She didn't call us
Why ,I just wondering If anything I did wrong?
I can't figure out...
Why so complicated
but I miss sweetheart so much
Mommy and Ping were so mad at xiao lian
Long story..haix
Yesterday I just argue with my elder sister
I totally felt despaired
she hurts me so much
why she always being so sensitive
Briney and I coundn't stand her anymore
She always misunderstood us...
she brought me to Shen Song
she said she wanted to buy shampoo
I said " you want to buy ma"
I was so suprised that the word came out of her mouth was " I am too calculative"
oh my God ...I just wanted to paid it as she didn't got much money
end up she said "bought separately"
Sis ping, If I was to calculative I will keep all my belonging ..
and I won't share my things to you...
think about it ,Money you own me did I collect them back?
I just said" forget it"..
what I want is sharing..I may keep naging sometime
I just want you to be awake that what we treat you
and to learn "sharing"
Sis, you know what ,,It is very hard to communicate with you
you always hide yourself in you own shell..
I am so sick about this ...
Father please tell me how I gonna to fix these problem
Is this my problem ..I will try to change..
