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Thursday, December 31, 2009

Goodbye 2009...Welcome 2010

在过一个小时我们便要对2009年说再见，很快的我们便要迎接2010年的到来
又到了交成绩单的时候，此时此刻的我正在教会写下reflection
坦白说脑里一片空白，眼见brother and sister 即将完成他们的reflection
每一年我的reflection 都没交上去，因为我的成绩单又是空空的
可是写不出还是要写
回顾2009 年，发生了许多意想不到的事，有欢笑也有泪水。
当中让我最深刻的是Michael 的逝世。Michael的离开唤醒了我多年沉睡的梦-Heal the World
失去MIchael 感觉像失去至亲的痛，仿佛整个地球都被悲伤与惆怅的乌云给笼罩而我我也为此哭了三个月。
讽刺的事在世的Michael 总成为别人的讥笑的笑柄，然而死后真相大白才成为万人景仰的名人....

而我的信仰生活却一直停滞不前，有起有落。这一年我究竟为神做了什么？到底我有多了解神的心情？
虽然这一年经历了无数的荡减但我却深深地经历神的爱，深刻地明白“我们爱乃是神先爱我们
不管遇到任何困难，天父都与我同在并差遣天使守护这我。
有时将自己陷入痛苦的深岩中，因为知道天父悲伤的心情，真父母亲与主耶稣的迫切拯救地心情，但却没办法把自己抽离那
现实的环境中。我讨厌自己的堕落性，讨厌那自私的自己.....

Saito San 与我也在今年画上了句号。四年的情缘就这么的结束了。多年来这承重的包袱一直压着我
感觉犹如释重放了但是悲伤也占据了少许。。。我真的希望Saito san 可以得到幸福，愿神的爱能围绕 Saito San .

与神的机遇让我为之动容，还记得一位外国朋友说过"Don't take God in your heart , be part of God's heart
因为这一句话让我每天去寻找与神的关系。可是我发现并不容易，因为我还未深刻的明白天父的心情
有岂能成为神的心情之基础？

今年天灾连连，地震，海啸，台风都在同月袭击大地如同Moses 时代，圣经上所说的终末不就是现在吗？多少人在苦等
耶稣降临，可悲的是弥撒亚已来到但却无人知道..这也意味着父神给与世人的警告，全球暖化的现象已日益严重
是时候爱护我们的地球。环保活动也是今年主要的课题。

再一次面临失去至亲之痛，大伯在九月份逝世了。

爸爸离开也有一年8个月了，时间流逝并没因此而淡忘，想念却是依旧。每当午夜梦回都期盼能再见。
对于我来说爸爸永远活在我心中,Michael 也一样
希望在灵界的爸爸大伯与Michael 一切安好

教会也发生了一些忽如其来的惊人消息，Brother Su thye 辞去了National Leader的职位。对于我来说有多了一份
愁感。我不知道到底发生了什么事？我不禁怀念起当初与Brother Su thye 一起在HQ忙碌的准备UPF的日子，
从未见过他发脾气，抱怨或激怒其他会员。相反地Brother Su thye 用他的心去包容我们的一切的不足
对于他那份对天父对真父母的爱让我觉得好感动。即时只睡几个小时任旧神采飞扬，精神奕奕
Brother Su thye 是一位很出色领袖在他身上我看见实体的神
那么温文尔雅，才貌出丛，谦虚，真诚的好好先生，还记得在韩国我满腹还骄傲的Malaysia 有这么棒的Leader.
在与他的谈话里我完成的被他給说服，他是一位即有说服力的人。
我想这句话我永远也不会忘记 "放大别人的优点，缩小别人的缺点”
Brother Su thye 实体的活出为他人而活的典范.

After wrote the reflection ,now is the time to write The Goal of year 2010
I wish I could offer my life to heavenly father and True Parents
I know this is not the first time I promised to God. I always gave an empty promise for God and True parents
I need to change my life to live for the greatest Good and pratice true Love
First of all I must build up a habit of HDK everyday .
Secondly I determine myself to became a Sunday School teacher with a culture of heart
Third Be part of God's hearts
To join 40days Workshop in Cheong Pyeong
witnessing became part of my life in order to bring glory to God and true parents
My tuition center could became second home of God
Be the children that make God's proud

Monday, December 28, 2009

MJ's Quotes

The moonwalk came from these beautiful children, these black kids who live in the ghetto's, who are brilliant. They just have the natural talent for dancing. They came up with these dances. All I do is enhance these dances.
Michael Jackson
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This is a time when a person reflects on the child that will always live inside him, but more importantly, the grown man that continues to emerge intellectually, but never lost his child-like innocence.
Michael Jackson
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It would make me extremely proud if you, the fans, would become ambassadors for "Go for your dreams!" all over the world.
Michael Jackson
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We are black, we are white. We are a community of some many differences, so complex and yet so simple. We do not need to have war!!!
Michael Jackson
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I try to make sure my kids are respectful and honorable and kind to everybody. I tell them, no matter what they do, work hard at it. What you want to do for a lifetime, be the best at it.
Michael Jackson
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I am bewildered at the length to which people will go to portray me so negatively.
Michael Jackson

Friday, December 25, 2009

Give love on Christmas

Dear heavenly father and True paretns

Christmas comes ,This is a day the World recongined that Jesus born on this day.but we know is actually on 3 January .No matther what We must understand the meaning of christmas ..It all about L.o.v.e God gave us his only son -Jesus come to the earth to save us .In the end we lead Jesus to the crosswe broke heavenly father heart .while celebrating the birth of Jesus , We should give love on christmas Father , I just felt so bleseed .Unbelievable my dream come true Remember the time when I was 16year old .I listened a song "heal the World"I cant help to fall in love with this song. The Iyris wrote that "heal the world make it a better place for you and for me for the entired human race ...especailly for childrenThe time both of us were so inspired by this song.we want to do share our love to those children .so We walk to ohphange near by my houseI still remember the women came out and asked us what happened .That time Both of us were so young and we felt shy then quikily run back to home.NIne years later my dream come true , We organize an event at orphange in Perling which is call where Love beginsNine year before Michael inspired us , Nine years after MIchael remind us our dream .Indeed we had fun here we gave them present But I forget one thing "to build up the relationship with children" some of them were so great , they had much talentFather , this is my first time to organize the project .I wish I could do well at next timeand I will try to talk to their heart .We woke up early in the morning to prepared all things .Thank you mommy for helping me .She cooks several foodThank you for my boss to offer $100 .Thank you for my brother .They bought one cartoon of chicken wing .Michael ,Thank you for reminding us.I have a gratitude heart toward to Antonhy and Ah huat .If without their help I dont think we could run the project smoothly .Thank God for always sent an Angel for me when I needed you most.I love you father ,I love you Jesus ,I love you True parentsFather you are my greatest joy and treasure of the ear

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Unreserved Love

Heavenly father n True Parents
Father , recently we are busy for our project - Where Love Begins.Last sunday we were having a metting with other member around the World. I felt so blessed I could contribute a small thingto the Where Love BeginsWe had discuss a several thing.Indeed Alex is a good leader. She is from USA. She gaveus some opinion and suggestion. Actually bake cake is the good ideal .I would try to bake same cake and make some biscuis from Orhange .Father please guide us to find a suitable Orhange house .I wish We could bring joy and happiness to themFather please share your wisdom to us to make thing done easily .
Father I love this song so much ,I wish I could offer this song for you and True parents on God's day
I've always been told love won't survive
The promises will turn into lies
The World just thing Love came and passed through
It never last pure and true
but I am still believe Love can last
It's your unfailing love that give me rest
you were there when I needed your more
I'll never walk alone
On the cross you die and took aways my cruse
Love so wondrous no one ever could deserve
you bleeding hands proved your love unreserved
you're my greatest joy and treasure on the earth
make my life a frangrant offering I pray
help me lord to serve you truly every day
through tears and joy I'll give you all my praise
Let the Whole World know you love and grace
but I am still believe Love can last
It's your unfailing love that give me rest
you were there when I needed your more
I'll never walk alone
On the cross you die and took aways my cruse
Love so wondrous no one ever could deserve
you bleeding hands proved your love unreserved
you're my greatest joy and treasure on the earth
make my life a frangrant offering I pray
help me lord to serve you truly every day
through tears and joy I'll give you all my praise
Let the Whole World know you love and grace
On the cross you die and took aways my cruse
Love so wondrous no one ever could deserve
you bleeding hands proved your love unreserved
you're my greatest joy and treasure on the earth
make my life a frangrant offering I pray
help me lord to serve you truly every day
through tears and joy I'll give you all my praise
Let the Whole World know you love and grace

Thursday, December 10, 2009

My Favorites book
Yesterday Min hui told me that Tuan sheng wanted to meet us.Tuan sheng ,Thank you for remembering us
The memories between us will always remain in my deepest heart .Thank you for giving us a beautiful
memories......
Last two Sunday Both of us didn't join the reunion dinner at Wisma with Leslie, Zhi ren and Kelvin.
We intend to join them due to our busy schedule and I also dont know how to face to them
so I chose to escape ....

以前友情仿佛是我最爱的一本书但一旦它加入少许的爱情成分便使我不禁的想跳跑
到最后变质。
到最后我们也变成了陌生人。即使相见了也行同陌路人。
父神谢谢您曾经给我一段又一段珍贵的友情
可是我俩却从来不曾珍惜愚味的认为这是理所当然
直到Leslie ,Zhi ren ,kelvin 的离开我才顿时恍然大悟不是他们不可以没有我们
而是我们太自以为是了。
现在知心的朋友也没有几个，能诉说心语的也寥寥无几
慧清是我的好朋友可是要找回相团胜，翼翔，Leslie ,zhi ren ,kelvin 那种可以令我快乐的知心朋友
却在也找不到了。

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Love ,Simple
just meet Amos ,He came to my tuiton center last saturday
he shared many thing arent good thing or bad things"
he confused me ...
I don't know whether he said were truth or not
I don't know
he said our church became Evil .
Unification church is the place that I found you and the indetiny of myself
He doesnt agree with brother Shu Lin, brother Bing qiang and so on
Father, Since you choosen brother Shu Lin as an Albel
We should be absolute obdience isn't it.
NOT doubt ....
I though our church is the place where people gather togerther with all our love
Why sundenly JIn sheng ,Amos ,Kei wei ,yin yin they left church?
They have strong faith in God, They did alot for church
They are the best.
I was so suprise especially JIn sheng left church..
Why sundenly became so complicated
Honestly I am easy to influnce by people
This time I don't want to hear what they said
I just want to make thing simple
I know I love God , I love true parents ,I love Michael
I am living in the God's ,True parents and Michael's World
and my World filled with God, True parents and Michael's love
shine my whole day.....This is it just simple...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

A promise in an another tomorrow

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have yet to prepare well to receive the blessing from our beloved heavenly father .Actually I
could bring some student's parents to join the event due to my doubtful so they couldnt received blessing
I am so failure .I felt sorry for God and True parents
I know God doesnt want to hear "sorry"come out for my mouth again .Honestly I felt sick too....
Father this is the last sorry I say.I really need to take my 5% portion resposibilty .I can't bear to see our beloved True parents
working so hard because of us.It a task mission for True parents.I cannot pretend anymore .
Father I want to set up the foundation of faith to witness my family and my student's parents
to come to know God and our incredible True parents.

The KL trip was cancelled so Briney and I meet kate at Âü¶¼Àû.She is going to marriage with Ah Dog
We helped kate to choose her wedding cloth.When I saw Kate wore wedding cloth I was so
enzy .I wish I could find my MR right soon.Unblievable Every wedding cloth was suite to kate.She looks
generous whavatver she wore. I felt happy to her really.We 'd having a great time!!! Woh another great news
Ah mei was pregnant.She looks extmerly happy.It is a blessing come from God...I hope both of my friend could be happy forever
and I love them ....
Recently we carried out our project -Where Love begins .Father ,The project Where Love begins which we dedicated for Michael
He was/is my inspiration .We want the World filled with love and Joy in this coming christmas.
so far we have 6 countries involved with this project.Father I sincerely pray for our project could run smoonthly
We could bring joy and sending our love to children.This is Michael's christmas wish.as well as my wish
I want to tell them :'They are not alone ,We are here always "God always be with them.
As for the budget it really make me headance ,I wish We have enough budget and man power to run the event
I actually thinking for the program ,I want to make the program full of love and joy and warth their heart.

Secondly ,Brother shu lin asked briney whether Sunday school will have any performance of God's day?He remind me
This is very important for our sunday School
We really need to offer our best to make joy for God and True parents
Briney and I got an ideal for sunday school perfomance
I think we could have "acting" Let children to act with one of the bible centre fingure
Through this perfomance they may more understand bible deeply
I believe this could really make fun for children
but we may facing one major problem.
Our second gen are toooo shy , they dont even dare to sing in fornt of people
then how about the The acting
Father both of us are curently pratice one song -speechless
but singing for me is quite hard .I dont used to sing in front of people
because I dont have the singing talent somemore I think people's ears will get hurt when we sing
I dont want to give up so easlily because this song -speechless was amazing
"You love is magic ,this is how I felt
when I with you I am far aways nothing is for real "
This is what I want to tell you ,father.
I hope I could sing well , pls father bless me to sing well on that day.

Thridly Father ,My tuition center are lacking of student
going to divide more flyer house to house
Father I know you are my guiding star , you always lead me to the right way
I have faith in you .hopefully our sunday school for outside children could inspired children
to felt God's love to restore many families as I coud I will do it father .please believe in me .This is I promise you