Dear heavenly father and True Parents
Father , Yesterday I went to church to attend DP workshop
I was so grateful to attend this workshop while I felt extremely shame in fort of you and True parents
Million Thousand of people are waiting for the second coming Lord
how precious for the DP lecture
True father exchange his blood ,swear ,tear and suffer alot in order to tell us the truth of Divine principle
I have not qualification t o received the blessing from you and true parents
I remember that time sis hui mei , bro shu lin ,bro yong xin they tried so hard in order to sent
me to cheong pyeong to received the blessing
I am so sorry I let you down father .....I let all my brother and sister down..
beside I am so sorry to my spouse -Saito san
This is the second blessing we received from our beloved True parents
and I keep asking myself did I have any qualification to received the blessing
I treat my blessing like rubbish
and I don't treasure it at all I even didn't appreciate for True parents
I hurts God and True parents deeply..
I hate myself ...
Look what I did.. I hurt Saito san
In his darkness hour I didn't give him support
I even treat him as a stranger
I didn't reply his e-mail
I am evil people
sorry for Saito san ,heavenly father and True parents
I am not deserve to receive your blessing.....
Yesterday brother Shu lin told me he want to break the blessing
The feeling is complicated
that is what i want for long isn't it?
I though I finally could realise this heavy burden
I though I could be happy
why my heart will full of sorrow?
When I know he had left God ...
My heart is bleeding ....
Father Please lead Saito to back to you
Please bless Saito could find peace and hope ..
I know he lost his way
It is all my fault...
Father please lead him to go through the darkness hour
I sincerely hope he could found his happiness
and could built up the family under God...
If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves ans pray and seek my face
and turn from their wicked ways.I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and restore their land 2Chronicles 7:14
