Dear Heavenly father and True parents

Father Last Saturday I received a news from Sis Annie .Saito san had decided wanna to break the blessing. My heart felt complicated also ..If he wanna to keep the blessing , I will felt more struggle . Now he decided to break with me .Honestly father My heart felt sad .i don't know why? No mood for whole day ..The reason I felt sad that I cannot received your second blessing and I throw away the first blessing you had given to me..and I hurt Saito deeply ,True parents more ...Father I should not deserve for your blessing ..How I gonna to face to you , my brother and sister and my ancestor on 14 October?
Father you still bless me eve I am not deserve it ..Single member still could drink the Holy wine on that day .You are our loving God ,Thank you for our loving True parents.Father ,I wish I could get over it and I dont wanna to hide it anymore .
Sunday I had join the Workshop , Bro Aron was the good lecturer .He had sent the important part of DP for all bro and Sis .I had learn more clearly of DP through bro Aron ..I found myself was really interesting to DP . because this is the book that true father risk his life ,blood ,swear, tear and his passion of love for mankind to exchange it from Satan . Nothing greater than these..
Thank you father for you incredible love ,I come to know your love for your children .God wanted to save us from Satan sovenighty . God our creator ,He create the World according to principle.Since Adam and Eve fall. We inherit Satan lineage "Jesus said you are your father son ,the Devil. "It true .God couldn't save us .Only mankind could save us through God's help
God sent his only Son Jesus Christ for gave us salvation ,Jesus should became second Adam and became the True parents of all mankind .Due to the ignorance of Jewish , They lead Jesus to the cross .Therefore God providance has to prolong .
2000year later because of the Jesus died on the cross that we have received the salvation of spirit .so the psyhical salvation only through True parents we can have reborn .
I know how important of 14 October 2009 .When I saw the video of True father message of 14october .I cant control my tears falling down .It has been very tough for TF to set up a condition for member to received the second blessing .This could be the last because TF is became old .He is ninety year old .He still work harded for the sake of us.I was so touch by what true father had did for us .He so much wanted to give blessing for all mankind. I can see it from TF face...
How could Saito and I could break the blessing so easily we never think of the important of blessing ,the meaning of blessing and the most important WE NEVER THINK OF TRUE PARENTS"S HEARTS.FAther please forgive Saito and I if possible .I felt totally sad because I hurt you and True parents deeply .
I had start to do the condition 120 time bow and the purpose is
1 .undertanding True parents's heart
2.Repentance ourself
3. Align to God and True parents will
4. establish CIG together .
Father I hope through my condition I can more understand your heart and came close to you.
I love you heavenly father ,True parents.
Father ,Sunday I have a sunday school to outside children ,honestly they are out of control compared to second gen , Second gen are more easly to control and with onwership
This is the diffrent from Second gen and outside children .I wish I could teach them well no matter Second gen or outside children .Father please share your winsdom to me ,please stay with us with your spirit .This coming sunday I really need to prepared well for sunday school ..I wont let you down .Father for I know you are always beisde me .Thank you God and True parents .
I hope this week gonna be the days full of God's love and hope..
Heavnely father ,True Parents ,Jesus I love you from the bottom of my hearts
Loving God, True parents,Jesus ,MJ and my family are the best thing in my life...