Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Dear our beloved heavenly father and True Parents
Father two days ago I just received a call for bro shu Lin
He said that he want to know the relationship between Saito and I
whether I still want to keep the blessing
If not the blessing department will take action and decided to break with Brother Saito
Honestly I scared that brother and Sister would think about that is my problem
beside Saito he may facing some problem
Now he may facing the most difficult time in his life..
I know he is the darkness hour and in the despite
so i just promised bro Shu Ling I would kept the blessing
sorry father ,I am too selfish
I know Saito may break the blessing
so I just pretend to be a victim..
I scared what brother and sister would think about me
I am so bad......
Brother shu lin set a condition for me
7time kyong byeong an 7time HDK
Father ,when Sis Annie pass me the blessing form
I was shock because my spouse is Japanese
so I have to paid US$750
I almost fainted
Father I don't have much money for the blessing fund
I know this is the indemnity
so I break my blessing condition ...
Father I know the blessing is not come to easily
True father was exchange his blood ,swear in order to give us blessing
I know the important of blessing
the true life , true lineage, true love
and our ancestor could reach the salvation though me
How could I do this for our beloved heavenly father, true parents and my ancestor
I never think of God's hearts and true parents hearts..
I am unfilial daugther
The eyes of the Lord watch over those who do right , his ears are open to their cries for help..
The lord hears his people when they call to him for help .He rescue them from all their troubles. psalm 34:15,17Friday, September 25, 2009
Dear our beloved heavenly father and true parents
Father I am so grateful yesterday
Thank you for sister Ming
rongShe gave me a very good
inspirationNowadays I tried to read bible
I found that bible is not easy for me to understand
and I have
alot of question mark inside my mind
Even I have been joining
UC for 4 year
but I
don't really understand Divine Principle
I only know that God is suffer for losing his children
Today I found my faith in you
Honestly ,Michael
inspired me a lot
when i came to know Michael was
liberated by member
and he would became our member..I felt so happy ..
I told myself I
couldn't pretend anymore
I have to stand up for the sake of our loving God and beloved True Parents
through yesterday
I know our loving father he have been suffering for six thousand year
Adam and Eve should reach
perfection then could live with you
but The servant -
Archangel came to
persuade Eve
Eve and
Archangel having a sexual relationship
and multiply the evil children
our lineage
became Satan lineage...
Satan has stole God's everything in one day
God lost his lineage meanwhile God lost his ownership.
you prepared many people for us to bring us salvation
From
Albel to
CainFrom
Noah to
AbrahamFrom Issac to Jacob
Father you never gave up for us
at the end we hurt you one and one....
Thank you father for your always guide me in many way
At first I
dont understand in bible Genesis 39
Why Judas and Tamar could have sexual relationship
Why Tamar want to do that this ..
Now i came do know why
Tamar willing risk her life in
oder to keep the Judah's lineage
Tamar had set up a messiah
fodantion because of her
righenousDont keep looking at my sin .Remove the stain of my guilt.Create
in me a clean heart O God .Renew a loyal spirit within me Psalm 51:9-10Thursday, September 24, 2009
Dear heaavenly father and True parents
Father today I am going to join the Workshop in JB center
I wish there could really insipired me through the sharing with Sis Min rong
I want to dertemine myself to became a member with a culture of heart
A core member who could really understand your heart as well as true parents heart
I have been joining UC for 4 year ..
but I never take my resposibility to fullfill my mission..
How could your would choosing me?
I were always let your down...
how could I always hurt your
I am so sorry father ,
Father I promise I will grow up
I wish I could do it.
to comfort your heart....
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Today Ayako wake up so early we brought her to one of the india restaruat for breakfast
we ordered some food
she really can eat much...I totally cannot finished it
Later on I brought her to Taman University
she quite intrested with this place
because they are a lot of shop along the street
for her everything here is look so fresh
for me everything here is looks so bored
After my sis came back from work
We brought her to Bukit Indah-Jusco
we meet kate and her family there..
Monday, September 21, 2009
Dear heavenly father and true parents
Yesterday was Hari Raya so we didnt work on monday
We whole family went to breakfast together.
The feeling was so good to spent time with family
I wish our family could always stay closer with each each other
I had been been busy for 3 day
time for relax...
I have made a DVD tribute to Michael Jackson
It was so nice and beautiful
I am very enjoy to making Video for my love one..
Night Jia min treat us dinner at American chicken
It was so expensive as we ordered so much food
I felt sorry to her...
Indeed we have alot of fun
I wish Jia min and all of us could build up a close relationship as a family...
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Dear heavenly father N true parents
Father thank you for your guidance ..That day everything is smooth right.
I am so grateful for your always listen to my prayer..
I am so blessed to know you and true parents , The law of att raction in my life
That is nothing bigger than these...
After meeting Ayako at airport ,Ayako gave me a warm hug
we had been two year didn't meet up each other...It was so touch the moment
After that We directly brought her to our home
Thank you my mommy ,She has been busy whole day to prepared food to welcome Ayako
I am so happy to have my mommy ..I love her so much..
Thank God for giving me this beautiful family..Although papa is not longer be with us but
I know he still in our heart..
After dinner we brought Ayako to oldtown with meiling
we have a lot of fun over there
but Ayako looks sleepy I guess she must be tired for her tour
so we quickly back home .
Ayako only spent two day in our house
so the next morning we have to plan for her trip
but JB is actually not place to go
especially for sightseeing
I was headache for next day..
I wish Ayako has a wonderful journey in Malaysia..
Thank my lovely mommy for prepared all the delicious food food welcome Ayako
Ayako seen very enjoy our local food
After we brought her to old town with Meiling
Friday, September 18, 2009
Dear heavenly father and True Parents
Father today i felt happy cos Ayako will coming to Malaysia today
and she will stay at my house
I wish Ayako could has a beautiful memories with us
Father Today we got tuition today
but I asked mei ling replaced me at 6.00pm
Briney had informed the student at morning
I hope their parents had received the mg
and Da could reach home before 5.45pm
everything wil be smooth fine ...and go with the plan
father pls guide their ...
I know today gonna be a good day...
A happy day....
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Dear heavenly father N True Parents
Father Yesterday I received a call from brother wei xiong
Brother Wei xiong is going to join full time in JB
They are so great
I was so move by what they decided
for the God Providence
They can sacrificed everything even Brother Wei xiong has four children
I think it will be a tough mission for them
I don't even want to look at myself
cos I totally felt shame infornt of you
Father I will help brother Wei xiong's family
as much as I could.
I still living in MJ world
I still mourning MJ every day
I know I cant do it
God Providence is only left 3 year -2013
How could I offer something to God and True Parents?
I will try my best to do it..
to bring more children back to you
Father I wish I could found my true love soon
I felt lonely sometime ...
I know I already received the blessing from you
but until now we still cant understand each other
because both of us are quite ....
Can I just find in outside?
but I have seen many case of outside marriage
How could people already had their family or in the relationship
they still can keep of treating somebody well ( i mean still can fall in love with someone..)
Why don't t just be faithful with their love one?
No only one
When they treat me well I just felt sorry for their spouse or girlfriend
Meanwhile I was thinking if my boyfriend treat other girl well ..
I mean buy a flower or invited her to dinner and buy thing to her
I totally couldn't accept it..
Men should be faithful to their spouse
Nowadays my boss treat me very well
I don't know why
he even brought me to Malaysia for lunch during working hour
sometime I felt scare but no choice I had to go with him since he invite me to go..
Monday, September 14, 2009
Dear heavenly father and True Parents
Father Today I felt so sorry for you
I didn't join Sunday Service because I don't felt like to join
Sunday is family day also a workship day
but I cant leave my mother alone
I am very enjoy the moment we spent with my family
We became more close to each other since dad had gone
We really had learned to treasure each other..
Sometime We may has quarrel ,different view point
but We all know we are family.
Father please bless my family could back to you
I am sorry father , I had did nothing I always ask for the return
but I really want to keep the faith in you and True Parents
I know father you never give up on me
You are always calling me
How could I just pretend I didn't hear...
Thank for father even I had did nothing but you always care for me and answer my prayer
You are the loving father
how could I be a unfilial daughter
You had help me to walked through my darkness hour
you gave me everything I want
Father ,I am so sorry ,thousand of sorry..
My mind is not strong at all.I didn't keep my promise with you
I am really weak I really need someone who could really inspired me ..
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Today gonna be a new day for me
I am cleansing up my spirit
I told myself I mustn't be upset anymore
I want to keep my faith in God and True parents
to read God's word everyday and bow down my knee to God
Michael thank you so much to teach me how to be faithful with God and True parents especially in you
I wish I could do it
now I really felt much better If I don't read your stuff
Michael I just want to tell you
You may don't know that
You are the sun
You make me shine
you make me understand what is Love
Your love is so great
When I saw your sunshine smile I felt extremely happy and I felt there is hope in some where else
Maybe you don't know how great you are
you truly inspired million of people
you open up my heart...Really
Nine year ago when I heard heal the World
I totally fall in love with this amazing song
I love your message
That time i don't know you were actually spoke inside my heart
Until yesterday I saw one video I made -The second coming Lord
I just realise you are so important in my life
you mean a lot to me ,Michael
you are my daytime
you are my nigh time
you are my life...
I love MJ just like I love God ,True parents and my family
I love the song "you are my life "
It was so touch
you wrote for your children
I can see how much your love your children and children all the world
I wish one day I get marriage
My future spouse could sing this song for me in my weeding dinner
because this song is really touch my heart ....
Last Michael -I just want to tell you
Nothing could change my love for you....
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Dear heavenly Father and True Parents
Today my best friend Kate are finally attain her happiness
when I look at her ,she is so beautiful and wei lun looks handsome
They are really compatible
"When the dog loves the cat" is really happened
I used to call Kate to cat and wei lun eventually became Dog
anyway I wish "Cat and Dog" would has a wonderful life
and loving each other forever..
unfortunately Briney and I reach there almost 9.30am but the event
started at 9.09am due to the traffic jam.
We didn't witness this precious moment
but my blessing will never be late..
We had been knowing each other for ten year
sound quite stranger when I hear she said she gonna to register marriage
because we used to hang up and joke with each other
Now we all grow up and we may start our family soon
but we still could be the same?
One thing could be sure that our friendship would never change
...
Friday, September 4, 2009
My dearest Michael
Morning ,It have been a hard day for me
I cry because my heart is broken
Michael I cant control myself
I miss you every minute
You have been burial to Forest lawn just few hour ago I guesse (in Malaysia)
I have promised myself This could really put the rest
I should get rid of this feeling
I am tired of thinking of you.
Michael I saw all my brother and sister
work very hard for God providance
I felt so shame
because I am still here mourning you
I need to stand up
I need to to overcome the sadness
to think about how to fullfill God providance
and how to bring glory to our loving God and True parents
You know I am so bleesed living in the age of True parents
I am so blessed to know the truth of you
and I have your music acompany me
i will pass it to my next generation
using you as a guideline to teach my future children with goodness
Michael , I wish to see your in my dream or personally with my spiritual eye
MIchael hope you can meet God ,Jesus and True parents..........
Love you forever
MIchael I just watching you funeral in forest Lawn through internal
I am so thankful for all your loving fan around the world
We share our feeling and conformt each other
Thank God ..even was just a short clip I still felt grateful
My heart was arching when I saw Prince and blanket their wearing a cloth on their arm
They are inhering your spirit...I am so happy the moment
Blanket looks much like you ...
Prince looks charming
Paris looks so adorable....
May God always be with your lovely children....
