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Saturday, February 28, 2009

神是爱 , 神爱我们
神所寫的詩

〈1978 北海道 某女性寫下,這是能夠感受到神的心情非常寶貴的內容〉
即使是多麼渺小的一個人,神也決不會捨棄他。
不要把我趕到那麼遠的地方,
我是安坐在你的胸中的一位,並沒有在其他的地方。
即使你胸中的房間是多麼地狹窄、多麼地雜亂,
我也是住在那個地方。
在那個黃金的宮殿當中沒有任何一個人,空蕩蕩的,
我並不想要居住在那兒。
住在你的房間內,不可思議地,我感到非常的舒適!
請你打開吧!對我來說,那個地方才是王宮。

看看夕陽吧,
為了要讓你高興,不小心用了太豐富的色彩,
我不曾去想自己的事情,所想的全是如何讓你喜悅。
那夕陽微妙的色彩,你喜歡嗎?
我想這樣子來跟你說話。
我並不是不了解人,
我會很高興地聽你所有嗯嗯阿阿的話。
我也帶著幽默唷,你看看大象的鼻子,再看看長頸鹿的頸子。
有人說我不了解人,這樣子的評判對我來說非常地困擾,
我並不是這樣子的。
很想說,卻又無法向你表達,這使我心酸不已,
我非常鬱卒而難受。

米迦勒啊!我所愛的孩子去哪裡了呢?
我的眼睛無法張開而看不見,只因為流了過多的眼淚。
你也記得吧!所愛的孩子誕生下來那時的事,
我想,即使我死去也沒有關係,
看著所愛的孩子的笑容,我如同瘋掉了一般地跳起舞來,
即使所愛的孩子惡作劇,我也很高興,
即使他哭鬧或者是生氣,我依然非常地喜悅,
儘管如此,但是他放下我去哪裡了?
你是情的天使,你應該能夠多少了解一點我這種痛苦的心情吧!
去到哪裡才能遇到我所愛的孩子呢?
米迦勒呀!請牽著瞎眼的我的手,
我的樣貌就如同乞丐一般,
為了要尋找你,我已經完全忘記了自己,
對於我自己,我什麼都不在意,
腳長了水泡,衣服破舊不堪,散著一頭亂髮,
為了想見你一眼,所以變成這副模樣。
我完全不在意別人的眼光及別人對我的羞辱。

那小驢子就是我,在那時很想讓耶穌坐在我的背上,
為了我而生且為了我而死的耶穌總是安慰著我,
因為耶穌的緣故我才能如此地有精神。
當耶穌被釘上十字架時,我背著耶穌的心情而去,
我只能夠垂頭喪氣地一直走下去,沒有辦法來安慰耶穌,
唯有被丟棄的、被踐踏的、被當成傻瓜一般的人才能夠了解我,
因為我就是這個樣態,所以沒有人能了解我悲傷的心情。
我受傷的心不斷地流出了血,
接住我流下的血的是那天竺葵小小的花瓣。

你跟我說話和我跟你談話時是最幸福的一刻,
無論何時我都想要這樣子地跟你在一起。
我並不想要華麗的禱告,也不想要金錢,
我只想待在你的身旁,能夠樸實地過生活,
為什麼把我趕到那樣高不可及的瓊樓玉宇或深深的皇宮內苑呢?
因為我喜歡你,所以,
對於必須行走著悲傷的道路、經過死亡的深淵才能夠了解我,
我真是感到非常地抱歉。
因為我全身滿是傷痕且孤獨無依的緣故,
若只是普通的樣態是無法來了解我的。
比起榮光的神,我更是悲痛的神,
我的臉頰沒有一日不是濕潤的,
眼睛就如同是蕃茄一般地紅腫,
想到你我就有無盡的哀憐。

與其一個人孤獨地在苦海飄流,
希望能夠趕快將你帶到舒適的岸邊,靠在我的手上,
你只要稍微伸出你的手就可以了,
我希望你能夠擦去我的眼淚,
我能夠責備你嗎?如果我責備你的話,我就不是我了。
與其如此,只好責備我自己,
因為沒有好好保護你,沒有辦法滿足你的靈魂,
這些都是我的錯,
無論是怎樣的罪你都可以得到原諒的。
充滿悔恨眼淚的你,現在已來到岸邊,
為了要拯救你一個人,我即使是犧牲幾萬人也沒有關係,
我並不是多數表決的神,
為了毫無價值的一個人的生命,我想要付出所有的一切,
無條件的、沒有限制地在我的心裡思念著你。
無法取代的你、絕對的你,為了你我能夠受任何的勞苦。


你是多麼地可愛呀!
只要你在,我的心情就會非常地喜悅,
即使你沒有做任何好的事情抑或是沒有服侍我,那都無所謂,
你只要存在,事實上就是一種孝順。
你不用做什麼事情都沒有關係,請你永遠地待在我身旁。
比較起來,受到傷害的人更是接近我的身旁,
我是弱小者及傷痛者的看護。
堅強的人即使是一個人也能夠活下去,
但是弱小的人,如果不照顧他們的話…
乞丐孤兒全都是我的孩子,
寂寞孤獨的靈魂是我的一部份。
「對不起!我的孩子。」
我如同瘋掉一般地在呼喚著,如同是在禱告一般地重複著這句話,
我沒有自己的國家,無論去到哪裡都被認為是不需要的,
我想要自己的國度,即使是很小、很貧窮也沒有關係,
我想要一個國度,能夠不必被追趕到地的盡頭。

你所獻給我的禱告變成了香氣,
你的每一句話都進入我的靈魂當中,
儘管所有的人都用腳踢你、驅趕你,
但是直到最後的最後,我都是你的夥伴,絕對不會放棄你,
為了全身傷痕累累的你,我要到地的盡頭去尋找藥草,
直到你的傷痕治癒為止,不然我是不會休息的。
你為我所流的每一滴眼淚,比起黃金還要更加尊貴。
活著吧!活著吧!這是我想要寄託給星星的訊息,
即使是再怎麼小的星星,也是因熱切想著你而創造的,
當你在面臨著苦境將要放棄時,請不要看著下面,看看天空吧!
你將會看到閃爍的星星正告訴你「活著吧…」
只要活著就好了,我對你沒有其他的期望。

迦百列,我的孩子到哪裡去了呢?
現在那個孩子不在,我的心充滿了黑暗,
那孩子事實上是好孩子,他沒有理由拋下我,必定會回來的,
他只是心有點變了,他只是跑出去而已,
我要打起精神把房間整理好,
因那個孩子或許馬上要回來了,
迦百列,不要擔心,他必定會好好地回來的。
星星是我的眼淚的一滴凝聚而形成的,
清澈閃耀的水的顏色,如同是我的心一般,
因為不斷地想著你,流著眼淚的緣故,天空全部都佈滿了星星。

看著因罪而嘆息的你,我感覺到非常地痛苦,
你可以帶著罪回到我的身邊哭泣,我決不會懲罰你,
因此而嘆息的你已經是受到懲罰了,我還能夠懲罰你嗎?
不得不讓你以著有罪的身體生下來,我感到非常地抱歉,
看著犯罪的你,我只有責備自己是我的錯,
我是為了受傷的人以及弱小的人而存在的。
健康的人他能夠好好的生活,
但是生病的人卻不能放著不管,不是嗎?
靈魂有病的人更是如此,
一個流著眼淚入睡的人,可以來到我的胸前依靠著我,
我會溫暖地擁抱著你,我也是一直都是一個人,
比起任何的親人、朋友,我更加接近你,
我待在你的心中,我是你的一部份喔,
你笑的時候我也笑,你痛苦的時候我也痛苦,
睡的時候、醒著的時候、跑的時候或休息的時候,
我都跟你一起,我就是你。

我抱著瘦弱的枯木而非壯碩的松樹哭泣,
你最近去哪裡了呢?
我雖是全能的,但更是心情的我,
看不到你的現在,我的胸口非常地痛,
我不知該如何治癒這傷痕,
因為心過於痛的緣故而想要把心切掉,
直到尋找到徘徊的你為止,這痛苦都要一直持續嗎?
即使花朵綻放地多麼美麗,即使鳥兒可愛地在歌唱著,
我都看不到也聽不到,只有尋找你的一個念頭而已。
對我來說,我只想拯救你,我沒有辦法再做其他的事情。
即使你變得多麼壞,犯了什麼樣的罪,
我只有想要將你擁抱在溫暖的胸懷中這樣的一個念頭,
因為想念你的緣故,精神變得有一些恍惚了!

你的心在滴著血,能夠治癒你傷痕的藥到底在哪裡呢?
比起我身上的傷,當我看到你身上的傷痕時讓我更加感到痛苦,
若是為了你的拯救,我願意自己下到地獄或走上十字架,
我的身體無論如何都無所謂,
若是為了你的靈魂,我願意被地獄的火燒也無所謂。

被稱為全能的我
為了要尋找你的漫長旅途,我變成了瞎子,變成了聾子,
披頭散髮、身體也疲憊不堪,
想見你一面的念頭,
使得我軟弱的腳能踏出一步,看不到也能夠朝著前方,
我並非保持沉默而是拚命地喊叫,
因為要拯救你的力量不夠的緣故,我只有懊悔著。
和我臉對著臉吧!
摩西的時候也是這樣,耶穌的時候也是這樣,
和你,我也想要這個樣子。

後序:
  這些詩並不是我做的,而是我將對著我說話的神,如同是大聲喊叫的神的聲音,我將這樣子的聲音記下來而已,我也沒有去思考過,在領受這些話語時,我多次流下了眼淚,浸濕了紙張,但是這也只能寫出神的心情的極小一部份。我想這些詩如果能夠稍微安慰你的心的話,神比什麼都喜悅吧!



One World Family Under God !!!!!A Ju !

How did you overcome the trial? Did you persevere? Did you call out to God for help?
yes, i always call out to God when i flet struggle .

Many today take God for granted. Some may go to church because it looks good or simply because it is the religious thing to do.
yup .I was always stay at Sunday school cos i dun felt like to go church because i felt shame when i saw all brother and sister , they are working so hard for the sake of God's providence
Are you really being honest with God?
-No always , sometime i dun ever dare to talk to God ,because of Satan mind......
Do you put Him first above all things and everyone?
-No, I always put my family at No 1 , same place with God

Do you seek Him daily?
-yes, but i felt shame when i stand in front of God

Do you spend time with Him and in His Word?
-seldom ..Dun know how to face to God

Do you truly love Him with all your heart, mind, and soul?
-Frankly speaking Yes , i am truly love God with my heart , mind and soul

Take a few minutes and think about each question. Remember, be honest with God and answer each one. God chose us and has a plan for each of us.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Dear heavenly father and true parent
Last few week i heard a good new from brother and sister , True parents are going to held a peace tour soon . Malaysia is the country true fahter has mention about it .HJN will come to malaysia for this coming peace tour. I was so exicted to meet HJM soon
Today I just received a e-mail from HQ ,HJN will not come to malaysia due to HJN has an another mission in USA.When i get to know the know i felt very disapointed because HJN is representivity of True parents .I miss True parents and HJN so much
First of all i felt happy to gonna to see HJN soon at the same time I scared of i have not qualification to see HJN .This time i felt abit realease it is because during the event of GPF , I determise my self i am gonna to change myself when i get to see HJN next time , so it mean that i have enough time to prepared myself .I promise next time i will have faith of God and stand of front line to welcome HJN to malaysia

TP was choose two of the Asian country to held the even .Malaysia is one of the asian country choose by true paretns , I am so happy to that . I know Malaysia will became a country of God
Thursday, February 19, 2009

Dear our beloved heavenly fahter and true parents
Father , Saturday i had some misundertand with sis , I dont want to explain more , The explaination is only an Exuse..We all have fallen natuare , our linage is belong to satan ,therefore we all are not pefect. Only through True parents we can have a reborn . Therefore we have to read father word to ungrade our spirit othervise we are became more evil ..
That night i was extremely sad, she cannot understand me , i dun want to make mummy felt sad
I only can talk to dad and God ,I pray to God and Dad deeply .that night i am dream on daddy ,i think God and dad are really listen my prayer ,dad can and console me . I told to dad I was so grateful to God to let me see you and hold your hand again .Daddy didnt say much word , I asked him It spirit world terrible? he said that when first reach there is quite terrible..

Isnt true of this dream? I also dun know .All i know is God always listen my prayer .I am so thankful to knowing God and true parents in my life time
Monday, February 16, 2009

Dear Last saturday was valentine day, i woke up early and i suppose to join them selling flower . At first i really want to gave up i dun really like out door fund raising .it is because the whether was hot and i dun like to face to face with people some more when they reject me i will felt shy. Luckily I know God is always be with me he make me felt good , First i was carry the heavy pail with flower i was intend to take taxi back home suddenly the people from the shop they look at my beautiful flower on the pail. Although they didnt buy ,they gave me much energy to sell flower When you go on one step God will lead you. I just enjoy selling flower and be more grateful .Unbelievable i sell a lot of flower and i only left 15 flower . today i sell RM370 flower
Actually we had sell almost RM1700 flower . Thank you heavenly father and true parents.
When you felt happy and full of love and be grateful all the time you will get the good outcome and good sprit will came with you that is we known the law of attraction.

Later on , we bought pipi to swimming pool , we have a wonderful time with pipi . pipi look very happy .when pipi happy , i also felt happy. I love pipi so much...

after we postpone the tuition on 8pm , sis bought us and pipi to Tun Aminah-nuptial dress because one of her colleague are getting marriage soon . It was so nice to see people wearing wedding dress it was so beautiful .

After we directly go tuition center , pipi was sleeping in the car because he went out a whole day he was definitely felt tired..

Overall , I have received a half dozen flower from Xiang Ling and he make a beautiful card and my photo inside the card . I am sorry with him , this is impossible between two of us , he is not cup of my tea .sorry to avoid your call. Pls forgive me …..I think we better be friend.

Furthermore I had received one dozen flowers from Royston and two flowers from other people. Anyway thank you very much for your flower ….
Happy Valentine

I also tell Vincent frankly, I am not suitable for him beside I have not any feeling toward to him, I only treat him as a brother …I dun want to wait his time and money
I wish he can found his true love soon. May god bless him..





The flower from someone

The cuties baby in the world

I spent my valentine with my sweetheart


Thursday, February 12, 2009

Dear Heavenly Fahter & True PArents

Father , todays is valentine Eve , Pei qiang and his some brother order 9 flower from me. Actually he is already order 1 Dozen from flower Boutique .He cant get the flower on friday
As he wanted to give supprise to sis . Briney and I help his to arrange transport delivery9 flower to Pin corprotion .Will she be happy? Sure, she will ( although pei qiang is not cup of her tea)
but all the girls will like this arrangement
Pei qiang and his brother will planing a firework show at night for sis they will try to cheap sis came out on tonight ..It will be very romantic I guesse . If somebody is willing to this for me i will surely move...
I wish my Mr right can be romance person but only to me

Anyway I wish sis can found her MR Right soon.I wish she could be happy always

At the Moment I felt that sis are the most lucky that us .Although we had many admired , we have received alot of gift , flower, dress and valuable thing even diamond also .we had enjoy the material life before but we cant found the true friend .Sis have a lot of good friend , they are very care for her and arrange a wondeful thing/ trip for her ..Group of group friend. Like gals and men they all can be a very good friend even they are not in relationship they still can be good friend...In opposite Both of us dun have the real friend , and our friendship will be very short since they gave up to court us...we cant be friend lomger if we rejected them.
or I can said because we always like to use them ...so i think there is a punishment..


One month later it will be Dad 's Death anniversary, time is going too fast i cant belive that we didnt saw dad almost one year ..It is because dad always stay in my heart


There are one of my best group friend ..we dont need to phone talk everyday but we know that we are best friend forever , no matter what happen....

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Dear heavenly Father and true parents

Father valentine is coming soon , , Actually I have been spent this festival alone of 25 year ago . I cant find the right man to spent this day with me. Anyway I will came to center to sell flower on this day .Father today I am so happy I have received 3 dozen of flower order from my friend. One is Royston he said that “ I want to buy flower from you , can you delivery to your house ”I was shock I though he want to buy from his girlfriend ,and I just wonder whether he just joke with me .He said it is true. Anyway thank you so much for his grant support to our charity activities and he make me felt happy.
Suddenly I was thinking of ah chang. Last two year he also bought me a beautiful flower on valentine , I have received several flower on last two year .He is also support our activities. He is always encourage me ,when I was down. He even wrote a several letter for me which is very touch of my heart. Indeed he is my best friend; he is truly treat me well. I had lost contact with him and Kelvin .This two brothers always protect me from harmful and help me did a lot of job. I am so grateful for both of them
Unfoturenaly I was always listen for what aunty Kerk said, therefore I had misunderstand with ah chang . I felt sorry to him .

He always date me but I always break my promise. Most of our company staff said that both of us are very compatible, actually I am quite happy to hear that because he is handsome beside he is very kind and gentle men.
We have not chemistry between both of us, maybe a little bit I guess

Anyway I miss this two friend, heavenly father if possible to meet them one more time ? Anyway father please bless this two brother I wish they can be happy everlasting , and they can received your love . to be wealth, healty,and happiness
May god bless them...

I wish i could found my MR right to spent this romance day with me in year 2010.
Monday, February 9, 2009

Dear heavenly father &TP


father valentime is coming soon, I have been spent valentime alone , I cant find the right person spent this day for me..anyway i will came to help center selling flower .Father today i am so happy i have received 3 dozen flower order from my friend. One is Royston he said"I want to buy flower and pls deliverly to your house".I was shock i though he want to buy for his girlfriend

and i just wonder whether he has joke for me, he said he is true...anyway thank you so much for him to support our charity beside he make me felt happy..


Sundenly i am thinking of ah chang , Last two year he also bought me a beautiful flower
Wednesday, February 4, 2009

I am so happy now , i am so grateful to know God , and True parents ,I love god, i can see that god love us so much , he create us with all his heart , he has love us first. He make the universal , he make all the wondeful thing before he create us . He love us more that anything Imaging before a baby get birth , parents will be excited and prepared all thing to their precious child , They want to give the thing which is most treasure in the world to their baby. God is like that ...God wish to gave us the most precious things to their beloved son and dangther, that is why he is gave us the most treasure thing in the world -The law of attraction ...Heavenly father, thank you so much for your love, for you care...for everything .No word can describ my love for you.....you are my father , my heavenly father, i love you just i love my dad.i guesse my dad is with u now....
Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Where r you , my derest friend-Happiness

Time has been pass through of many year , until now there is one question is still keep inside my heart. What is the purpose of life ?
I have been try many way to look for my dearest friend , from the botton of my heart i cant felt much happy within a few past year.

Since the day dad had gone my life became worst that ever b4 , "Happiness" is only a nouns.
what i want is since like simple- happniess but it hard to attain it...
How to define the meaning of happiness?
Isnt status + wealth + Look+ love + health =happiness
which one is the most important , or can i have it all?

who will be my prince ,where is my prince ?

will his protect me ? treat me well, love me from his heart ?

will he be kind , friendly , rightenous and gentelmen?

will i became the only happiness on him?

I am believe i will meet him soon....

I am happy when we all together (family )
I am happy when i saw smilling on dad and mum face
I am happy when i meet God
I am happy when i saw True parents
I am happy when the children arround me ...
I am happy when i meet him....