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Saturday, March 22, 2008

Dear heavenly father & True parents

这几天,家里变得格外安静好像少了些东西indee 我们少了papa...真的好不习惯好想好想papa...不知道papa现在过得好不好,every minute every second i miss papa..好辛苦哦...每天害怕起床,mummy also cant sleep..i think it need time to overcome, no matter wat happen papa always be with us..we believe we will meet again in cheong pyeong..papa we will go to CP to libreration ancestor after that papa can come and visit us anytime and to be the absolute good spirit ,and lead us to back to god..papa, this few days i cant felt u, pls tell me did u go back home??why u did pass a mg on my dream..why u didn't let us to see u? I know u worried tat we will felt scare after seeing you ...papa pls believe in true parents..papa i still miss u ..that day i saw u was lie in the coffic ,and already make up , u know what ? i cant recognize u..u became more handsome but i prefer to u orginal look..papa ,this few day i felt very down,i always cry because I miss u ,现在是papa 你享福嘚时候了,but u had gone..everyday like to share about u wit family ,how great the person u are especially mummy always cry when we talk about u..mummy love u so much we love u so much.....papa i really miss the time when we spent together , u gave us a beautiful memory ,我真得很遗憾没有完成papa你的愿望去西藏, i really wish to bring u to travel...pls papa dont forget us..we love u so much

Tuesday, March 18, 2008


Dear my dreast heavenly father n True parents

Father, this days 13march 2008一个没有生命的日子,却是我人生最痛苦的一天... is the most painful day in my life, daddy has gone爸爸会到神的身边了..he suffer so many day ,he is our hero-一位抗癌勇士,my dearest papa...how can you bear to leave us.... i know you already try your best..i cant believe it i almost baishe ...my drearest papa u gave us a lot of sweet memory,even how pain u are, u still said u will be fine,you promise me tat u will be fine.that time i hold ur hand i know how suffer u are but u still get hope to us,u dun want us to worry about u..papa i miss u so much, i miss the time i hold ur hand, i talk to u how sweet the moment . my heart was so pain until now, this is the time u enjoy life,i wish i could earn more money to u, to bring u travel all arround the world.this is my dream but now it turn to nothing..no point for me to work hard...i lost my own way this is truth...although u have leaving us but u left the sweet memory t us..we went to restarunt to celebrate father day,mother day..we ate dian xin almost every week , we went t encosave u carry baby, u brought me to colleage and sent me back everyday.u are the best father in the world.I know one day u and mummy will be together so now i will take good care mummy ,and i will give back to u in the futhure .papa , 你带着我们满满的爱,离开了这个世界 、但是我知道你会在一个美丽的世界看顾这我们。爸爸灵界是一个爱的世界你必需充满爱。papa we love u so much.....这几天的葬礼办的挺风光的,爸爸应该很安慰吧,看到ah fa 在出殡时所说的你是我们最好的爸爸,我们永远怀念你。。我的心这的很痛,看到mummy哭的那么伤心,papa你也一定很伤心,为什么父神你要带走papa because u dun want to see papa suffer so much,and u cant bear to see his children always cry for him , so u take papa away..heavenly father since u take papa away, u must help me to take care of him..pls promise me to bring papa to the high level sprit world.i know papa will go to the high level of sprit world because he is the great person he save many life, he has a gold of heart although he like to scold god, it is because he dun understand the life is always like that, father pls forgive papa....if anything i can do for papa i will do...papa u're always in my heart..i know u still be with us....as long as our heart be with u, no one can take us apart....papa pls back to god, he will lead u....

Wednesday, March 12, 2008



DeAR my beloved heavenly father and true parents
that day i got a dream , i dream on our family include vincent we went to a beautiful valley.sis smile very nature toward to daddy,a fa hug pipi place on the stone.how happy we are, or i can say happy can be so easy..father, i drove briney to taman university ,after back home i saw daddy lying in the floor i quikly call sis and ah fa to move daddy back to the bed.later i back to room and sleep awhile, actually i felt scare id un willing to see dad suffer so much i always want to hide .this few week my heart was keep in jump very fast, and a lot of negative thinking come out, i am so scare,i will lose daddy.i pray and pray with tear i hope miracle will come out.i cant sleep at all i went to mother room and help mummy to massage,sundenly i hear ah fa to call daddy wake up but daddy was not respond ,sis quikily wake up to call daddy but dad stilll no respond mummy and i quikly go down state to take a look, daddy 处于昏迷状态。we try to call him he finaly got respond but daddy cannot open eye due to 水肿,daddy's leg also both水肿,we try to call papa and he said 喉咙有痰,吐不出来,i am so scare i was keep crying and i remember wat the secret wrote, i go back to my room, i drow a picturewith tear i keep praying to God , pls dun take my papa aways ,i draw a picture which is our whole family go to korea-CP and HK star of avenue i want to prove that the secert .i pray to god deeply. Soon papa get better a bit he can eat porriage sis gave ling zhi and porriage to daddy ,daddy look like very suffer and he still冒汗we though he may feel hot.Sis say dun worry daddy now 排毒he getting better after eat western medician.we have a bit realise,i ask daddy must recovery soon daddy say he will .Sis and ah fa mummy try to clean daddy's 大便,daddy look adnormal but sis say is good for daddy cos 排毒 , daddy breath very since like very hard ..sound like got many 痰inside ,after that daddy not respond even we call him many time.ah fa, sis and mummy send daddy to hospital it was a heavy raining,mummy ask me to take care baby,my heart was so pain.i keep on pray and pray ,i cry and cry and i call bro shu lin he say do 40 bow to ancestor ,i alone to wait for jun and da to come back,this time i have a very bad thinking,i am so scare.later jun came back sis say daddy cant alive on today.i almost crazy, pray and do bow in outside,auty look at me ,but i totally baise le,once ah fa,mummy come back mummy told to me no matter what happen we must be brave since daddy so suffer like that we must let go.i call bro shu lin whether he got the holy wine jun and i cry very hard we cant acept daddy will leave us.When we reach the hospital we saw da sis ,sis told us to talk to daddy and tell him dun worry about us we will take care of mummy ask daddy to realise and go to a beautiful place.i cry infront daddy and i hold him hand i cant bear to leave him alone and i kiss him in my life time i say daddy i love you 我不要在留你了,我要你去一个美丽快乐的地方。不要在这里受苦了,要回到神的身边,all of us cry together because we cant bear to leave daddy..hui ching ,bro shu ling and same bro and sis to giva us a warn greeting,brother shu lin told to daddy,daddy look more peaceful.thank you so much....after they go back i read DP to dad ,sundely i saw daddy breath became slowly i quikly ask sis to come in ,the nurse already come,she say talk to him he still can hear us, 当我看到daddy 的心跳慢慢停止,我的心有如刀刻,痛的不能自帕。好痛好痛心痛到没有感觉,我们一直跟daddy说话until daddy 心跳停止, sis and i cry very hard...until mummy and jun come we know daddy can hear us..我真的好痛,sad从来都没有这种感觉。i say papa i love you so much......after that we 收拾我们的心情,我知道我们要面对跟痛苦的经历。。犹如做梦一样,从来都没想过会有这么残忍的一天。爸爸回到了神的身边他带着我们满满的爱离开了去了一个美丽的世界,留给了我们美丽的回忆。Dad , today is the day which i dun want to remember....Dad pls take good care , no one can take us apart as long as our heart are always be with u together. God will lead you , God Love you, we Love you too.Dad the memory u gave to us , It will became my energy to live well and i will keep it in my deep heart .

" This is the last time we had fun together"

This is our last " Family Photo"
Sunday, March 9, 2008

Today i was walking alone the street and i keep praying for dad . My heart became scare that scare i dun know how to do i was so scared i will lose dad , i have this negative thinking always .I cry at night ,Jun ,she scold me how can i has this kind of mind Sis and Jun said dad defenitely will get well soon
Because Jun didnt stay at home she cant saw the situation of dad , Ah fa and i stayed at home whole day we know the situation of dad thefore i became more scare, i want to go out , if i keep staying at home to see how dad suffer how pain of dad , i will die soon...
Every day i was waiting them back at lease they can comfort me became my heart are now very weak , i cant accept bad news anymore....
Last week Sis stay at home i felt a bit sense of safe . she tell me she goona back to work i felt more scare, i cant handle well so whevever she ask me do anything i will willing to do as long as what it her command.She can really comfort us as well as dad....
Friday, March 7, 2008

yesterday daddy promise to eat lin zhi every hour i was so happy
after two hour daddy became very weak he even cant stand and no more enegry.he felt like no more enegry and suffer when i saw that my heart cant stand it anymore i was so scare .i start to pray with tear and i was crying all the afternoon, bro shu lin ask me to pray to god deeply,and truly believe in god .I pray and pray my heart was so suffer i can believe that daddy .....Luckly jin feng and xue xiang they come to our house to conform us to help daddy bao zhao.daddy getting better but still weak. I call Jun and Sis to go back early until Sis and jun come back we all sit together and keep crying Ah fa ,Mummy ,Jun Sis we cry infront of dad ,daddy also crying we extmerly sad i know daddy also felt sad and pain, this moment i am oledi bei shan le . After crying we felt better ,Daddy alsopromise us that he will get well soon , he promise us . when we 收拾好我们的心情,we still get hope because we got god ,true parent,ling zhi and all the good thing we had we strongly believe we will win this battle.thank you heavenly father and true parents to keep in take care daddy ,bro shu lin also very nice to us ,I am so thankful all brother and sister keep in pray for dad and do condition to dad somemore he introduce the doctor who is a spritual heal that is no neccesary medicial treatment only music treatment , father pls bless daddy can become more stronger and getting better that recovery soon because we love him so much father, i want to bring my family to back to u pls father i will join fulll time to repay you grateful.If without god and true parent ,the sercet and lingzhi i already beisan le.thank for heavenly father ,true parent bro shu lin ling zhi, xue xiang ,jin feng ,universe and so on...I am now so happy, grateful and full of love i know daddy will recovery soon,we will build up the one family under god ah ju....